I am not in rage nor did I define your limitations nor am I in any way suggesting to give up your personal dreams, you may or may not reach that goal and it doesn't matter to me and leaves me quite unemotional - it is just the words you chose and I do read what people write word for word - I understand now that you meant something different than you wrote - quote: "Always wanted to fly citation X, so will have my eye on that most of the time". That is different than saying: "It is my dream to fly the Citation X some day". To "have an eye on that most of the time" just sounds like you're stalking one particular type of aircraft, just analog to a cover girl on a glossy magazine at this point in time and pardon me if I find such a phrase a bit adolesceantly funny. Let's leave it at that and no further explanations necessary.
