ghandou
Remember Its your life and if you think that you want to fly ... so be it.
You make a choice and live with the consequences. If you want to fly go ahead and do it. but please do not live in the past viz 'I used to be at 150000 a year etc.."
You know by now what many people would think of you in a multi crew cockpit.
But Go ahead and make your life yours...
( Try asking what your family honestly thinks of it as well )