hello pilotmike, thanks again.
Yeah I really had a unlucky start, but I'm going to do whatever I can to make it. My goal is to have all the licences before next summer and have my first job as a first officer anywhere in the world when I turn 26.
I just got back from a solo flight. It was beautiful, for an hour I forgot all my problems! but It's going to be ok. I'm now 10h from my flight test for the PPL, I already passed the theory exam.
Thanks again