JTea, a prat of a comment to make in the circumstances.
Hawker, a sad story and I full well understand your feelings. Some of us have been far more fortunate in surviving the travails that our love affair with life, and flying in particular, has visited upon us. I have some scars to show. You seem to be full of fighting spirit and of positive outlook, which is half the battle won.
A chap I worked with had an engine failure (Volkswagen) on take off in his Dragonfly. Fortunately he had enough runway remaining in front to put it down without any damage. Result of carb icing. As a matter of interest, what was the type engine involved in your accident and the cause of its failure?
I have no advice to offer, other than to say I wish you the very best, and God speed with the remainder of your lifes journey.