Stick to your guns (metaphorically only in this case)
I left the mob over 14 years ago and it was the best thing I ever did.
There are times you miss the blokes you work with, but one thing you DON'T MISS is the petty bureaucracy like you're suffering at the moment.
I was always told that flying pay was risk pay (I did 24 years, 22 as aircrew).
You are still taking and accepting the same risk as everybody else but pen-pushers have decided that you will be castigated for having the temerity to decide you don't want to do this any more - I mean it's not as if you got out there first time then said - oh this is not what I joined up for.
It's treatment like this that just hardens peoples' attitudes. It's petty and so typical and you won't miss THEM.
Good luck