Absolutely not. Stop. Give up for gods sake.
There is sod all chance of raising the funds and motivation to complete commercial training and even if you did a job would be a very long shot.
Flying is a disease. It destroys some people and ruins their lives. Some are lucky and either recover or conquer the beast and make a lot of money out of it. I suspect you will be in the former category if you are not careful.
Get an old motorbike or a horse or a small boat or something less expensive, less risky and more rewarding than a half hearted aviation ambition.
Seriously.
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