AWACS_bhoy,
It sounds to me like you've made up your mind already. Do some more thinking, be decisive and make a decision - it's only your time you'll end up wasting.
with regards to the RAF I have taken a very different approach because to be fair its a dangerous job and the threat of me being killed during my service and never making the cockpit job has crossed my mind many times.
Do you not think that could happen working for an airline? I'm sure I don't have to remind you of recent events where it's not gone quite to plan. Have you thought about what you would do if you were to lose your medical because in all honesty - that's just as likely/if not more likely to happen than you getting killed in service with the RAF!
S88