On the one hand you say you've always wanted to be an airline pilot, on the other you say that the miltary lifestyle appeals more to you at the moment than flying.
....erm....sorry to say it, but if you interviewed like this it's unlikely you'd get a flying job.
Also I'm always dubious about ambitions to be an 'airline' pilot - most pro pilots I know just wanted to be pilots.
How you could stand not to fly until you're forty if that's your real ambition, I don't know.
You need to do some serious soul searching, and understand that the people you will be up against for flying jobs at any age will be totally committed to that one thing.
Sorry if that all seems a bit hard or judgemental, but you need to confront these issues now or you're going to be in for a very frustrating twenty years.