Hey Anett............chin up ....don't give up now !!!
You have come too far, and beleive it or not things will come right.
Let's face it, you chose a very difficult path, to start flying at your stage of life ( with kid's etc).
Most people start out when they are free and single, and able to move back in with family, or dig's etc when these things happen.
However, there are far more opportunities now than in the eighties when I was trying to get into airlines.
You may have to instruct for a while, and take out more loans, but all the airlines will be taking soon, to make up the slack and you WILL find something.
However, it's never going to be easy with airline rosters working people to the max....and public holiday's ........I don't think so !!!!