Everthing in your posts says to me that you are unwilling or unable to make a go/no-go decision - the very go/no-go decision that the law requires. You are simply surviving because ther are a multitude of fields in the country and your luck so far has not left you stranded.
LOL, You are getting into a peeing contest now to try and prove your point with people who are amongst the most capable and knowledgeable in aviation! If you wrote everything I know about aviation on a postage stamp, 421C and Bookworm would submit the encyclopedia Britannia and still have time to give me advice.
You never know when to quit do you.