Dolly,,,, i havent disappeared ive had a nightmare trying to get back in here for last few days. Someone hacked me
anyway here i am and WOW i had a lot of responses that were all really useful to me.
Let me try to explain my fears.....
Ive been flying most years sometimes 4 times a year for ummmm 30 years. I have always had a slight fear as im a bit claustrophobic, but it was never being shut in the plane that bothered me. I think with me its almost the fear of not being able to get out when i want to.
Anyway most flights ive had have been uneventful, a few with turbulance which made me sweat a bit.
Then something extraordinary happened to me.... my best friend died at the age of 39 of breast cancer, i saw her get sicker and sicker and then was with her day before she died. I lost it for a while, then i went through this period of thinking well "what the heck" the worse thing happeneded to her whats worst can happen to me too? and for some odd reason i flew everywhere, i wasnt scared at all, i even flew to West coast USA ALONE !!! and back !!!
Then i started flying with my Hubby and child again and it got worse again. Last year i started suffering from anxiety attacks, or rather just shortness of breath attacks, sort of an anticipatory thing, so obviously getting to an airport waiting to board taxying to the runway was highly anticipatory for me. This is why the worst part fro me when i get really short of breath or feel i cant get a breath in is the bit where we taxy to the bit where we take off, im terrible at that point and could quite easily stand up scream and ask to get off. Im not so bad once im up and straight ( I hate the climb) im sort of good with the landing.
Two years ago i flew back from greece same day as Helios plane went down, we were sat in the airport lounge when it came on, not many calm faces i can tell you. We boarded took off and about 2 hours into flight had the most awful turbulence to thepoint the crew sat down and not one announcement was made after it had stopped. It went on for about 20mins i was freaking out inside.
Then last year i went to spain and my child vomitted on take off and got upset but i coped ok for that, but after these anxity attacks i had a rotten holiday and was anxious ( like when flying) the whole of my holiday, now im due to go to Greece again in August and am dreading not only the flight but the thought of being like this the whole of my vacation.
Im going to get the fear of flying CD's as ive heard they are very good, valium used to work, im on prozac but it doesnt really stop that really exagerrated feeling i get flying
Sorry its long winded but thats sorta my story.
Thanks for all the great posts too
