BH
Getting up in the morning frightens me fartless:----------
Hey I understand your fear, do try a trial flt at your local aero club, or even get a glider trip, now thats a nice with no noise!
All so called pointless fears (vertigo is medical) are based upon a reason, 'tis just finding the base point.
I've been in aviation for over 40 years, but still some times get a twitch at
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Good luck and enjoy the roller coaster ride, for that's all it is, but with a glass or two!