expedite08
Having read your most recent posts, it seems you've become disheartened and given up. Or possibly, are going through a bad patch.
Whichever it is, I wish you well in whatever career you decide to pursue.
Of course competition for the Somers Scholarship will be tough; competition is tough for most things worth winning.
If you believe you can win, you may.
If you believe you can't, you probably won't.
If you don't try, you definitely won't.
The same is true of most things in life that are worth achieving.
FL