I am sorry to say that after many posts you are still a rookie with a bit to learn!
I appreciate that in your neck of the woods that right now you may be frustrated as the daylight is short and the dark is long;-
However, ROOKIES are only supposed to be seen at the controls in DAYLIGHT and heard - shouting in the bar- in the DARK.
As far as your diet is concerned if you remember to substitute that with the odd bone that you should be thrown as part of the universal slave feeding regime then you should survive to take on the world sooner than you think.
I will leave you with an adage that may help;
A pessimist is one who sees difficulty in every opportunity,
an opportunist is one who sees opportunity in every difficulty.
all the best
TET