Thirdmonkey
I am very sorry for your loss, you are obviously a great advert for the old maxim that time is a great healer.
It's been only just 12 months since XV230 went down, it's still very raw.
Everybody deals with grief in different ways, there are no rules when it comes to grieving.
Human beings are all different some sit back and take everything that life throws at them, good or bad, without question. However there are others that have the courage of their conviction to stand up and be counted, to stand up and say NO this is not acceptable. If there were not people like that in this world you and I would almost certainly be speaking German now.