Third Monkey
I am very sorry to hear of the loss of your husband, it must have been hard for you bringing up two children on your own.
You appear to be very angry, perhaps this recent Nimrod crash has opened up old wounds for you now.
I too feel angry at times this is all part of the grieving process I am told.
I do hope I will eventually come to terms with what has happened & find peace but it is all so raw at the moment and feels like only yesterday that we had that knock at the door.