Roboto
PLease try not to get too downhearted. Many pilots in great jobs have have had a really tough time to start with. By definition it is often when you are at your lowest that things come right.
Being human we sometimes compare ourselves with others but however unfair things seem it is to be resisted. The temptation never actually stops. Sometimes I have thought something like - another colleague on the fleet is lucky because he had his/her training paid for or whatever. Then I think don't be silly - whats the problem - you are on the 757/767 flying great routes etc and you have the satisfaction if knowing you achieved it on your own.
It WILL come right.Perhaps you need to look at the way you are applying for jobs. You need to be pretty damn procative.
Take Heart - It will be worth it in the end and it will feel very good I can assure you. Life is unfair - So is Aviation. Probably more so.
Good Luck You'll get there.
SAM 2M
