Can't Hover
I can't believe you!
What is your problem?
How is exercising your legitimate rights 'professional suicide'?
If you can't be bothered to stand up and make a stand for yourself and your family, then it is pointless asking for help. What are you going to do? carry on bleating to everyone in the crewroom about how hard done by you are? What do you think they will do, have a whip round for you?
Get real man and have the courage to do something other than whinging on about it.
TSM