VT, I seriously think you should consider giving up your aim of flying for a living and turn your enthusiasm into a hobby. Why? Because, with your attitude, you will probably never earn enough to call it a job, and would bugger up the livelihoods of those a little less starry-eyed about their living.
Go and become something else; a doctor, lawyer, estate agent, specialist security professional, or whatever. Firstly, you might earn enough to fly for fun - which, I suspect, would see you suffer fewer disillusionments than flying airliners and would give you greater satisfaction. Secondly, I'd rather you took your employer-friendly (some would say suicidal) tactics to another industry!
Scroggs