Jimlyn,
The best of luck to you. Good idea posting a plea for help in this forum - there are many people who like to help others out. Don't defend yourself. People who haven't been in your position don't fully comprehend, and you are finding yourself exposing more and more personal information, which really isn't necessary. I understand situations like "unable to draw on unemployment insurance" etc. - It happens, I don't need to know the details and respect your privacy. I also understand that while you are not Canadian by birth, & there is a little discomfort being in a new place, full of new accents, manners & social standards. Sometimes people move out of their place of birth or choice location for all sorts of reasons, & yours maybe to be close to remaining family who are unable to move. I fully understand the difficulties with being over 50 and looking for employment. I even understand the difficulties with being over 25 and looking for employment. There are situations that one needs to experience first hand to fully comprehend the humiliation, frustration & loss of self esteem. You are trying (even if it does tire you out), & using all contemporary resources available (e.g. pprune) - hang in there, you are someone's Dad, Friend, Partner, Neighbour & are valued in these roles - one day may even be yourself again too, which will be a bonus.
Kind regards & best wishes.