I have lived that tragedy one thousand times since tuesday, like I imagine you all, fellow Flight Attendants and Pilots.
I was on the computer when it happened, and 15 min later, when the news spread, I joined the community on Pprune. We were like 100 on the chat, sharing those dreadful moments and our disbelief, passing on informations, asking about those who we knew could have been around there.
If flights to US will be soon resumed, I'll fly to NY on Sunday. I'll wear my professional mask, but, for once, I'll feel right not to smile.