Excellent post
I am pre-solo, but can relate to how you felt. It's so easy as a wannabe to dismiss how much work it actually takes and how hard it actually is to fly a plane (nevermind just the flying part, how about the rest of it!) It surprised me, and made me immediately think I must not be cut out for it. But I am determined that I did not waste the last several years dreaming about it for nothing! It is coming to me, just in a different way than I expected.
I'm just going to keep working at it and see how it goes. Now if only this weather would go away, I could get lessons in often enough!
Whenever I am out working the pumps on the ramp, all I think about is how I want to get back up!
cheers
and good luck