Might I suggest that if you are looking at doing a full FATPL you dont pay any moey up fornt till you have least been solo even if you goto a local club and do it prior to starting your course , otherwise it may be a bit expensive should the worse happen and oyu really cant do it . On a positive note , everyone has the same feelings and apprehensions it is prefectly normal , by the time oyur time comes you will enjoy it like no other flight , everyone remembers their first solo and you will only ever do it once , look forward to it and thoroughly enjoy , good luck