Newbie, just don't give up hope. That's the worst thing that you can do.
If you are serious about still wanting to go for it, go to Cranfield and sit their initial pilot inspection/assessment. That way you'll be able to see your weak spots and be able to advise what you can do to improve.
And yes, it is difficult to get a job with an (f)ATPL, but keep optimistic. Sometimes it is worth the gamble just to see what happens.
And that's what I'm doing...
Cheers
Chris