So you won't be sitting in an office, unmotivated by your work, every day until you're 70 years of age. As much effort as you're exerting and as much money as you are spending I'm still envious.
There are those that do and those that don't. You and most of the other folks here are doers. I'm not, as I'm married with two small children and just fly for fun. But I also enjoy reading the postings here about pilots struggling through their training and other hurdles that arise. If it were easy and cheap you would have a lot more competition, so be glad that it is not. One day you'll look back on your training days with fondness.