Hey Pudy Cat,
I suggest you run to the future, cause your bankrupt past that would have folded into never, never land would have given you jack. You have a job and a very decent one at that...Yes, we get the part about being hard done by and terrible sacrifice and heartache, but most of it is ego driven. You were forced to merge with the enemy, plain and simple where their would be no winners. Forced to wear that dreaded RED color that was the devil in disguise. Throw your graphs in the 86 file, or wallpaper your house...you are gainfully employed with great benefits to support you and your family. Did you see yourself retiring with team red? Not in the darkest places of your mind, but that's the painful reality of aviation. It's interesting how over 3000 pilots seemed to get the short end of the stick. Nobody is happy to merge with the enemy and now having to pretend to be spooning on the couch. It's not right, fair, reasonable, blah, blah blah. Those of us on the outside, see you as lucky, I suggest you look at that glass of water carefully and call it half full !