Antic 81.
Quote; "after reading your post in which you quote my request for a loan I cant help but get the sinking feeling that I must have been mad, it sounds like a bloody rediculous request doesn't it?"
The only thing i'd say to that is don't give up mate. I realise how serious taking such a loan is. Obviously you've got to realise how that might affect you in the future etc. However, there are many people out there bumming around in a damn sight more than 30k's worth of debt. Britian is on it's arse with people maxing out their cards and taking loans they cannot afford.
Best of luck, hope it works out for you.