Delwy,
Yeas its hard to come on here and admit you have been a fool. There are plenty of people as we have seen happy to jump into the warm waters of your own personal nightmare. They really do revel in it.
Its not easy to admit you made a huge mistake. My motivation for doing is it to warn others off making the same huge mistake.
Pressman, There are only three here, I refer you to paragraph one.Trust me: There are an awful lot waiting. I would say anything up to a hundred with a minimum of fifty.