Very very sorry to hear that news.
I too cannot get a class 1 at present but have managed to get a class 2 and keep my passion for flying at bay.
I have moved my sales career into aviation (selling to airlines, MROs etc) and so I have enough money to fly at weekends plus talk aeros during the week.
Its not sitting up there in the pointy end but if there is nothing you can do and you have tried everything, then surely theres some satisfaction in knowing you gave it your best shot.
keep the head up fella
