All of what you say is very true. There are big big downs, but there are ups too. I know personally of 2 guys who were mid 30's with not much more flying experience than training hours, and have both got jobs without paying out for type ratings and the like. One has been flying for 9 months or so now, and the other is doing his type rating as we speak. I feed off that to give me the motivation to carry on. I am in the same boat as you guys, sending CVs out to everyone and anyone. I also have the wife and 2 kids too. The thing is i know all to well that when im retired and sitting there thinking about my life, i would be gutted if my thought was 'I really wish i had stuck at the airline thing'. Try and find the inspiration to carry on guys!!