Thanks so much guys!
I adore my baby boy and the thought of not seeing him everyday makes me very sad. I also absolutly love being a mummy and have realised that this is what I was put on earth for, to nuture and love my baby.
I don't want to work at all but in this day and age its so hard to pay the mortgage and bills with one income. I'm going to take your advice, I can apply for BA in a few years they liked me once why not again?
I know Excel take on part time flyers 5 days on 9 days off I think I'll give them a go.
My mum will help with childcare, who would be more perfect than my baby's nanna!!