Fantastic account Puritan.
I think I already knew it deap down but to read that, brought it home nicely. I've already left a career in IT behind to pursue this seemingly hopeless goal. No turning back for me though, so it’s either a job or that 6ft length of rope somebody mentioned a few posts back.
Time is ticking on for me now. My whole working life has been geared around earning enough money to eventually fund myself through the ATPL. Its good that I have a skill to fall back on, but it’s a skill that I didn’t enjoy and never really wanted. It’s taken me 9 years to get this far and I’d be kicking myself for the rest of my life if I turned back without trying.
Either way I shall continue on with the same attitude with which I approach the incredibly frustrating sport of golf… “!!!! or bust”
EDIT: just read that back to myself and it sounds a little like I'm having a pop. I'm not, just posting that cheered me up slightly