Outlaw,
May I know your ethnic and your origin, please. Did you attend the qualification test conducted by MAS and you did not make it?
Do you aspire to become a pilot?
The way I look at your expressions, sorry to say that you just dont have what it takes to become a pilot. Go take your dreams somewhere else and with such an attitude, you wont even make it ab-inition flying training.
Your paper qualifications does not determine your flying ability. So, if you have failed to qualify at the initial cadetship programme entry test, then you can might as well just go and fly kites.