…and you became interested in Air Traffic movements; how exactly?
Answer -I was too blind to fly the damn things!! As for being shy I don't know a single shy controller!
Anyway, I am still unsure why you would want to look at a radar picture and listen in on a scanner unless you were sad or up to no good.
If you want to see live radar, get in contact with local airport
PR people or the Community Relations Officer at your local RAF station. They are usually willing to help spotters enjoy themselves and I'm sure a visit to your friendly ATC tower could be arranged.