Just wanted to say thanks for all the advice and pm. I haven't started taking any meds yet- took one pill one night and reconsidered.
I know that these drugs take a while to work but the next day and for most of the night I was wondering if I would suffer from side effects, if they would work, if taking them was the right course of action etc.
its really difficult deciding what to do as regards taking meds. I know I might get through this on my own but I don't want to waste any more of my life feeling miserable.
Sixmilehigh your story was really inspirational but there are so many deadlines in my life at the moment I just dont have the time to do this on my own. 'Friends' are fading away, I just dont feel like going out any more. My family are not very supportive. I still live at home and I feel that I am placing an unfair burden on them. My mother is very religious and favours prayer above meds -- does anyone have any views on that side of things particually in light of the recent channel four documentary???????????????? My mother believes that I am being called to a spiritual life or something like that and relations are strained. My grandparents ring weekly to enquire about me...what i'm up to etc which adds to the pressure. Admitting your depressed is really difficult and I find myself lying to everyone rather than tell them which is creating lots of problems.
I had planned on starting training for my CPL in september but I'm not sure if I can or should go ahead with that. I just cant see the light at the end of the tunnel at the moment.
Last edited by globalnative; 26th February 2005 at 16:51.