I've had two flights that have gone very wrong and both stories would start with exactly these words:
to cut a very long story short, I shouldn’t have been flying
I shouldn't have been flying in the first place on either occasion; I was not physically and/or mentally up to it, but felt I had to and had higher powers who I felt overrided my decision making authority. Have - hopefully - well and truly learnt that lesson now.
Whirly
Thanks for your story; it was very enlightening. Have to say, I kind of imagined that one doesn't really make mistakes or ever get behind aircraft on CPL tests if one wants to pass, so this was quite comforting reading.