Burned-Off
It sounds like resolving the issue is foremost in your mind right now but you are worried about the consequences of getting help.
What about the consequences of not getting help? These are factors you need to weigh up.
I think most of the posts in the forum here in response to your initial query are sympathetic and supportive but in agreement that professional help would probably be the best course of action.
Getting help does not brand you as weak, or a "nutter".
If you want to only get help if there is no possibility of detrimentally affecting your medical certificate, ask yourself whether that is a good attitude for a professional pilot?
Suppose you had severe chest pains, or blackouts, would you keep those quiet to maintain your medical certificate?
Would you put your medical status above the safety of your passengers, crew and aircraft?
I think you will find you are able to see your GP and get a referral to a psychologist (not a psychiatrist!) for a discussions, or series of discussions, that will help reorientate your feelings. No medication, just help getting a perspective on things. Like a conversation with a friend, albeit one who understands the inner workings of the mind...
So long as that's as far as it goes, would anyone else need to know? I personally know pilots with far worse problems than that who keep it all under wraps. If they had only sought early help, they would probably be much happier, healthier people.
Think of it as a bit of a mental and emotional tune-up without invasive therapy or medication. When I went through something like this, I had about ten sessions with a psychologist who helped me understand why I had felt depressed over the loss of a family member over 25 years earlier. And helped me resolve the matter. But it involved taking the lid off ALL my feelings and talking about them. It was a cathartic, cleansing experience.
I'm glad I did it, and it hasn't impacted my medical status, and I think I'm probably a better person, and maybe a better pilot, for the experience.
Over to you - You have control.
Let us know how it goes.
Cheers...