Mate, it's a tough road ahead. Please remember one thing, we are all here in one way or another to help you. You will not be a burden to any one. If you need a hand, just let us know.
Do read the book, "Never tell me never" it is very good. Alana Arnot (helo pilot in Oz) is another inspiration.
Good luck.
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reddo
A Feral Animal.