Spiderman, first of all, I understand where you're coming from, but can I suggest you take time out to look at things from another angle?
You are convinced you want to be a fast-jet pilot. I'm not questioning your desire, but I think you should.
Be devil's advocate with yourself and make a list of all the reasons that make being a fast-jet pilot so attractive to you.
Now are they based on fact or fantasy? Be as honest with yourself as you can.
Perhaps you find your reasons are totally realistic - well, have you done anything about getting up in the air in any capacity? Gliding is the first thing that springs to mind.
You say you can't stand mechanical stuff - to me that seems very odd for someone who wants to fly. I'm not saying every pilot is into engineering, and some of the best actually have a leaning towards the arts, but the vast majority do have some interest in how things work!
Might I also remind you that the purpose of being a fast-jet pilot is ultimately to deliver your weapons to the assigned target if called upon to do so. This means killing. It could mean you killing and maiming, and inflicting agonising pain on men, women, children, babies, animals. This is not a judgemental statement, just a statement of fact. How do you feel about this?
So I ask you to question your own motivation.
It may be after consideration that your motivation is as strong as ever.
But remember - it's often easier to focus all your energies on something you know in your heart of hearts that you're not going to do, than to start right now getting on with the rest of your life.
Apart from all that, if you're still hooked on flying, for goodness sake get yourself up into the air and your hands on the controls in some shape or form.
