It sounds to me as if you need to get out of ythe 'flying' game maxmet. You sound very bitter & twisted about something? not being personal, just an observation from your post's on here over the last few days or so... as an ex-B.A. employee (Eurofleet LHR) & Ex-Caledonian employee (MAN) I'm still loving my job now after 13 years, I'm at easyJet now & I like the company, the money, the people & the way we're treated. I really do think that it depends on 'you' as a person. The way you look at & do things in life can make something 'good' or 'bad' if you know what I mean... I fly with quite alot of ex-crew from other airlines like myself & a minority of them do moan & go on! but remember, it's down to you as an individual to do something about it!!!!!