Hey Millerscourt,
I see you're back, like a bad cheque. I hope you've taken cognisance of the support group I mentioned - it's never too late to get help.
By the way, you're right about the site being for all and sundry, even for wives of EK capts!
I'm just trying to help you spend your time more constructively, but I guess at your age, it's just the old PC and colostomy bag...