Mate,
I am afraid that I can not help you with a nugget of wisdom-only to agree with the above post-talking early when you encounter problems usually solves them-don't be a prisoner to your own fears.
Your first job is always a hard one...and so is the second and third. I have been in the industry 10 years and am a jet Capt. but still find it difficult to find the perfect job. Preception changes as you mature with the vocation.
All I can say is that EVERYONE I know who has started down this difficult and costly road has succeded.
Keep going-it could change tommorow-thats flying.
LF