I understand the feelings you are going through.
If you remember the Vintage Pair (Vampire/Meteor) that crashed at Mildenhall some time ago.
The feelings I had were unsurmountable. I'd gone to Mildenhall for as many years as I ccould remember, but that day I had tears im my eyes and had to leave the show.
Please don't condemn these people, they give up their free time to entertain us. Nobody should speculate as to the cause until the investigations are complete.
My deepest feeling go out to all, both family and friends.