So sad that flying schools sell people this dream when the jump from CPL to a first job is the hardest bit of all.
I would have advised you to spend that money to get some command time rather than a bunch more qualifications that you can't use until you have...more command time, because that is what really counts. Maybe that is why people seem to be leapfrogging you, if they have more hours in command.
Good luck anyway. You'll look back on these times fondly one day!