"I have given up on my dream of being in cockpit of a commercial airliner."
Roger, you have a dream it may look daunting, to some impossible.
Nevertheless, impossible dreams sometimes come true.
I know of a guy with a dream, he started his dream at age 39, every one discouraged him but he
persisted. At age 45 he found himself in the cockpit of a Boeing 737 as a first officer. He is now a captain.
Dreams do come true.