Strato... what are you on about ( or should that be 'what are you on' ) ?!
And please don't bring some supposed god and / or his supposed disciples into this - it's anathema and of no particular relevance here.
W.r.t. giving up, I never did - which might have something to do with why I've now got a cushty job flying nice shiny jets for a top operation.
Ps. Beware of lights at the end of tunnels, it might be an express train !