Originally Posted by
Whenurhappy
Not on the air, but as an acting Det Cdr in Macedonia in 1999, I was confronted with a situation with injured allied personnel (injured in a car accident) being taken hostage by armed militia. I stood my ground, but remember trembling with rage so much I had to put my pistol on a table to line up the loaded magazine. The guys with AK 47s and RPGs were a murderous lot but let teo of our guys go, but held an injured Norwegian captain at gun point. The incident didn't end that well; but I remember downing a large number of beers whe the Wg Cdr turned up to debrief us. I remember shaking a lot. Got written up for a MOD, but compared with what our people have done in Iraq and Afghanistan in more recent years, I feel ashamed.
Sounds like you were reacting to adrenaline, rather than fear. Even if it was fear, nothing to feel ashamed about.