I don’t know what your RPC allows you to do or how far you can go. But you are really just starting. As you expand your capabilities, your confidence and ability will grow. I don’t know if where you fly, others are RPCs or PPLs.
In your situation, I would look at going to another airfield, busier if possible and upgrading to a PPL. afterwards, what you find hard now will become easy and routine. Your situational awareness will improve as will your confidence.
i started with a PPL and ended up with an ATPL and a lifetime in the business.
Good luck.