Capt. - are you REALLY suggesting you'd be willing to sacrifice your own life (and maybe those of your mates) in a stupid face off in a muddy creek in S Iraq/Iran for nothing other than the "reputation of the Service"?
Knowing that every officer and politician above you would disavow your action and do their damnedest to make sure you were totally forgotten??
If so I think its better for everyone, especially your friends and family, that you no longer are in the military