Originally Posted by
just2010
I think I don't have depression in that classical sense. I am suicidal or something like that. Just frustrated to not life as I want to. I think it's normal that you get frustrated if you restrict yourself to do things what you actually love for reasons like environment that you cannot really influence or change.
Did you mean to say you are
**NOT** suicidal? Either way, perhaps it is best to see someone about this and see if you do need help in that area.
It can be hard to make a decision and it can be harder to finally make the jump. While waiting, however, save up as much as you can. Whether you decide to take up pilot training or not, a good financial health will help you regardless of what you decide to do in life. Good luck!